Friday, April 25, 2008


Wow. I'm done. It feels so strange. I took my last final this morning, easy peasy, and now basically nothing stands between me and that diploma. I kept expecting something to happen, I don't know why, usually I'm not the paranoid type (not even on pot; on pot I'm the "weep over not getting to choose the cereal brand" type) but I was just waiting for a bad case of gangrene to keep me from finishing. I kept waiting for an Acme...oh jeez. What are those things called? Those things that have no relevance to everyday life except for falling on cartoon characters? Really heavy. ANVILS. Right. I kept waiting for an anvil to fall on me. But I'm done. It's kind of exhilarating, like making it to the $1000 level in Who Wants To Be a Millionaire. It's not that exciting, really, but at least they can't take it away from you! Take that, Regis!

And now you know how long it's been since I've watched TV.

It's been a good four years, y'all. Lots of change. Lots of growth. Two long-term relationships with a couple of flings in between. More moves than I could chronicle without the help of's address book--god bless you, Wonderful roommates, lots of laughter, at least seven different jobs, lots of failures, and a couple of successes. College is everything they say it will be, and then some. Wear a condom.

This is a big step. I don't know what comes next. I guess I have to either accomplish my dreams or fail to accomplish my dreams now. Which kind of sucks, because who needs that kind of pressure? Not me. Obviously I'm big into pursuing success at the moment. Because blogging is the first sign of true commitment to one's future. Not a sign that one needs at least a brief vacation from self-discipline. Hooray, summer! (That's your cue. Summer? Summer...?)

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Still in Limbo

Quick commentary on limbo: limbo sucks.

Moving on. I spent the weekend in St. George with Andy and his family. It was so nice to get away from all of the things I'm stressing about: homework I still need to do, money, final papers, final exams, money, not having a car/what I need to do in order to get one, bills, what I'm going to do for a whole year since it doesn't look like I'm starting grad school in the fall, etc. You get the picture. I didn't think about any of those things from Friday until Monday morning. It was wonderful. Instead I lounged by the pool, swam, was followed around by Andy's four-year-old nephews like the Pied Piper, went biking, climbed on the red rocks, and ate way more junk food than I should have. I really, really like Andy's family. I already feel pretty comfortable with them.

I'm completely finished with three of my classes as of today: yoga, Research Writing (which has actually been a terrific class, thanks to the teacher) and Intellectual Traditions:Modernism, which I've hated more than I've hated any class since high school. Now I just need to finish everything for my Reasoning and Rational Decision making class, turn in the three bound copies of my thesis, and write those two seven page papers for the Think Tank, and I'm done. Ugh. It sounds like a lot still.

I think I've found a job that would be perfect for me over the next year as I'm reapplying to graduate school. There's a position open for a College Outreach Adviser, which means I'd go around to different schools across the Wasatch Front and help high school students figure out what they need to do to apply for college and financial aid. How cool would that be? It's from August until May. I'm working on the application. Very excited.

Anyways, that's it for now. Just trying to get through this next couple of weeks. I can't wait to be done with school so I can focus on my writing. I have several projects that I want to finish, hopefully by June. Maybe I'll get around to actually posting some fiction or poetry here once I'm not weighed down by the heavy burden of college.
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